Hello everyone today is a great blog entry. If you are fortunate enough to read this blog then you are about to go on a wild ride inside my mind today. This morning I woke up at 6:00am having gotten 4 hrs rest due to not being able to go to sleep til 2am (anxiety, excitement, battling temptation and overcoming -And the church said AMEN) don’t everyone rush to send me 1 Peter 5:7 at once now! Anyway I laid there trying to sleep some more until 6:30 when I was like I this isn’t working, it’s time to get up. I sat at my table looking out my window at the countryside of Lewisville and the town lights as it was still dark outside. I then spent some time in prayer for my job situation and for the date I had coming up later this morning. Prayed that the two sisters who came in from outta town to visit their married friends would have a great time. I then either made some breakfast tacos or eat some Special K cereal while reading Proverbs 13 and 14. “A wise man fears the LORD and shuns evil, but a fool is hotheaded and reckless.” Proverbs 14:16
“A quick-tempered man does foolish things, and a crafty man is hated.” Proverbs 14:17
“The light of the righteous shines brightly, but the lamp of the wicked is snuffed out.” Proverbs 13:9 Daily Scriptures
I spent some time meditating on these scriptures (and I would be glad I did later on in that day) due to the fact that I have gotten really upset about some things lately and either have fired back or wanted to fire back. It made me contemplate the times I have been quick-tempered and reckless with my words or reacted verbally in a defensive manner or reacted verbally out of frustration when it would have been much better to go pray/sleep on what was said and come back and repeat it for understanding and then respond. The kicker with that is all it takes is responding in a quick-tempered manner once, to seriously damage a relationship and all it takes is doing it twice to build a bad reputation. I know I have responded that way once in the last 30 days. As I looked out the window at the sky that was starting to lighten up as the sun was getting ready to rise, once again all I could think to myself is you idiot! Well it is time for some major reflection and meditation in this area. I definitely don’t feel like this is me over the last 4 years, I thought to myself, but I have enough of a reputation for being this way that I can’t allow this to happen even once, because when I do, it gets magnified 100 times over and I think it is a little more hurtful coming from me. Bottom line, I cannot react out of emotion, frustration, or anger, EVER, and I won’t be that person.
Preparing 2 Encourage
After getting in the Word it was off to the gym across the street to workout. I got 5-10 hard minutes on the bike and then I did biceps and chest for 20 minutes (short workout). It was time to go clean up and get myself ready to encourage. By 9:15 I was off to meet a brother whom called me the week before to offer me some cash (super humbling to share but very encouraged by God’s heart to provide) in which after doing the whole: “no bro that”s okay, no bro take it, no bro I appreciate it save it for another day, no bro I got you” I caved in and he not only gave me a nice some of money, but when I told him I will pay it back he responded with the heart of no you keep it, you’ve helped me, others, let me help you, you have other things to take care of. WHOA! Thank you God and bro if you ever read this blog thank you again from the deepest part of my heart. Now it was time to get some flowers and go encourage the sisters and it would be an exciting trip to the store to get flowers. Once I got to the store to get flowers, I decided to chage clothes. I went to the bathroom in the back of the store and at the end of a hallway that you had to enter through a door that had a square window at the top. I entered the hallway and reached to open the mens room door only to be denied due to it already being occupied. So I waited and waited……and waited. This man was in there gruntin and flushin! After 10 minutes and with the 11am deadline approaching I thought about just changing in the hallway (no one will see me, will they) I decided against it. After 3 more minutes I thought oh what the heck life is about taking chances so I changed right there in the hallway and did it with out anyone seeing me thank God!
I arrived at the married couples apartment where are dates were and after the other brother showed up we went to the apartment that I had written down and knocked then banged on the door, no answer so we banged harfer, still no answer so we called the brother only to find out that we were at the wrong door (either he gave me the wrong number or I wrote it down wrong). We walked to the right door and to be honest I was excited but a little nervous because I hadn’t seen my friend from LA since the summer when I was going through depression. We came in and everyone was smiles and we all greeted each other, they gave us some biscuits and we slapped a little jelly on ‘em and got the heck outta there and on the road to the Ft. Worth Stockyards where I take all the Californians who come to visit.
On the ride over I got a chance to share with my date all the challenges I have gone through with transitioning outta the ministry and a lot of the things God has been teaching me that I needed to learn in order to be a better servant and love in a better way (compassion, empathy, perseverence, perseverence, surrender, faith). We arrived at the Stockyards and parked as I was briefing them on the history of the stockyards and things native to Texas. It was off to the window shopping and sight seeing. We treated the sisters to seeing all the native Texan stuff sold at the Stockyards. Blue Bell Ice Cream was a huge hit with them as they agreed that it was better than that weaksauce Ben and Jerry’s/Hagendaus mess. I of course had to have some Dublin Dr. Pepper which I am so sad to announce , will not be produced anymore because of the greed of corporate Dr. Pepper and there agreement to buy (or their forcing of Dublin Dr.Pepper to sell) The Dublin Dr. Pepper plant which is the only Dr. Pepper plant in the world that makes Dr. Pepper with real Imperial cane sugar instead of that high fructose corn syrup mess. After 100 years it’s closing down and I am not fired up about Dr. Pepper messin with a Texas Legend. R.I,P Dublin DP, it was a great run!
We saw all sorts of Native Texan stuff including the original Texas Hold’em, the Texas Jackelope, the Texas Armadillo, Dublin Dr Pepper. The sisters had a blast. Then as we were headed to lunch the lady who works in one of the stores came out and asked us if any of us had left some keys in there store and sure enough, yours truly left them in there! I was so grateful to her for bringing them to me and grateful to God. It was on to lunch at Coopers Old Time Pit BBQ! on the menu was Brisket and chicken and they all LOVED IT! I am glad to report that many times was it mentioned that this was a great idea. My date struck up a convo with a couple that was there which allowed me to get tthe guys info and I think I am gonna try to get lunch with him this week but he works right down the street from where I will be working if I get this job with the Art Institute this week. After lunch and a short 1 minute D-time moment it was off to the General store. This weekend just so happened to be the weekend of the stock show and rodeo so everyone was riding there horses down the street and several groups brought there horse and buggy with them. it was a grand sight to see ans thousands of people were there and up to 70 people were riding around on horses and buggy’s. The cowboys were everywhere and I don’t mean Dallas! (It’s a Texas thing). We shared in telling the sisters all the great things about the Sovereign State of Texas but after 4 hours it was time to get goin.
As we were leaving we decide to stop at the Ft. Worth Water gardens. Knowing what the sisters were in for I showed them the amazing sight that is the Water Gardens and if you have never been there before, it is a breathe taking sight. But soon the challenge of scaling the wall (a 30 foot high wall) loomed over us. My date qyickly took on the challenge and as she began to climb I went into this catatonic state thinking to myself please God don’t let her fall and kill herself (I am deathly afraid of heights) but not to be out done you know your boy Jeremy just had to scale the wall to save face and boy did I do it clinging on to every step for dear life. With the wall behind us it was off to Braums for Ice cream again as I changed into my hilarious George W. Bush Shirt that I bought at the Stockyards. (I am a Libertarian or independent just in case you were wondering) We hit up Braums for Ice cream and then headed home.
The Bar Encounter
Once I got home I met up with a brother whom came down from another ministry to get some encouragement. We went to Gecko sports bar to watch the Broncos and Tim Tebow get killed by the Patriots. We had some good mentoring time and spiritual encouragement as we shared our strugggles with each other. Then it was time to leave. as we were leaving it happened! One of the guys at the other table said : you guys aren’t leaving yet Tebow might bring them back (down by 35 points with 3 minutes left in the game) we said no way but I thought to myself: ‘well here is a chance to engage in convo with these guys” so we talked and I asked them if they lived around here and one of them who was very tipsy brought up USC and i thought: “Oh yes we are in” so we talked about USC and I kept thinking, how am I gonna invite him and after finding out that he lived in Allen I went ahead and took the chance and invited this halfway drunken cussin Trojan fan to church. To my shock he said: I dont really go to church I believe in God but I don’t know the Bible like I should, Once he said that I pulled out my bible and we had an on the spot bible preview. We got the number and headed out. God is awesome and I can wait to see how God writes this guys story! Goodnght guys and gals